SOS
Itās 3.30am. I canāt sleep. My period will be here any day and not sleeping properly in the second half of my cycle is totally normal now. So are periods that last over a week. The urge to want to kill someone/ everyone is also normal now. My hair is dry. My joints and muscles are tight. Mild vertigo comes and goes. I forget simple things. Iām 10kg heavier than 6 months ago Iām 46 and until recently none of the above was normal. 4 years ago I qualified for triathlon world champs and completed an Ironman. 2 years ago I completed a 115km Ultra marathon. Now it hurts my hips to run 5km. I ride mountain bikes now to preserve my joints. According to two female GPs, I donāt get hot flushes so Iām not peri-menopausal. My mum didnāt get hot flushes. They donāt care. My 11 year old has ADHD. He canāt tolerate Ritalin anymore. He gets sick and doesnāt want to eat. We stopped the medication and I got an urgent appointment with the paediatrician which my husband took him to because I was working. It cost $300. The three of them agree to leave him unmedicated because heās ānot doing too badā. My son also doesnāt want to take any more tablets at all. My sonās teacher has spoken to me twice this term about lack of focus and not understanding instruction since heās been off Ritalin. My son, on Ritalin, became a year 6 House Captain. Off Ritalin, he took fart bombs to school and set them off in the reception toilets. Off Ritalin, heās told a teacher to āFuck Offā when he was over whelmed. But apparently heās ānot doing too badā. My 13 year old just made the state basketball squad. Heās undiagnosed neuro-divergent and wants to stay that way. Heās doing ok. Both my boys are smart and very good learners. The main stream school system is not good for them. It does not play to their strengths and their grades reflect that. Money is tight so options are limited. Iām also undiagnosed neuro-divergent but canāt get my shit together to get a diagnosis. I have no time. I work full time and Iām the main earner in our house. Iām the educational lead of a statewide program in a government educational organisation. I love it but itās taking a lot out of me. My husband grew up in a very different culture. Itās our strength and our weakness at the same time. I donāt even have the energy to go into that here. Help.
Frozen
I was driving listening to todayās ep and crying with laughter when Michael froze and I thought, Iām doing it! And Iām on Supercast subscribing. So my first Extra āSecretsā ep was *practically perfect* as a musical theatre nerd myself. I was rushing to get to Kmart to get a T-shirt for school pick up after I spilt coffee on my āFive hundred, twenty five thousand, six hundred minutesā top. *At the end of the day* it was a full *circle of life* moment. :) So please, it would be wicked if you would tell me your favorite musicals! Chookas, Bec.